My astounding 17th birthday

helloooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

at last, I am able to blog again!!! ROFL XD I am so happy and I just wanna share my happiness to those who can read this :)) i found it awkward when my birthday is nearly approaching. i miss my high school friends who surprises me and give me somewhat valuable. surely, this year's celebration is far too different from my past four birthdays. so i found it weird who will surprise me out of my wild imagination. and booooom! i planned what i wanted to do on that very day. days before my birthday, i feel so unworthy , you know what i mean. at the very first hour of my birthday i pray. i thank God for everything and for what i have right now. i also ask God my personal prayers. i am so happy i am able to thank God and suddenly my tears roll down my cheeks. i was asking " God what is happening? i just want to have this day happily.. father i don't want to be sad.. i'm so down "  and after i pray, got my notebook and do my devotion . after that shooocks! 4 messages greet me and i found my self smiling reading those messages, they were cute. after that i sleep.
 I woke up at 6:30 am i think  because my Dad greet me and i has straight face saying nothing in return. sorry but i was so down. i got up from my bed at around 7:30 am they're all gone.. no one is in our house--- just me and snow. after realizing it. i prayed again and cried again. i felt so childish for crying. too emotional? yes it was me.. after minutes after i pray i do my homework then check my phone there are about 6 out 10 messages greeting me after i read it it beep and it was my best friend/mentor greeting me in this form "happy birthday pretty" oh emm!  she makes me smile. then we text for about 30 minutes then she stated that i must wait and tell her if someone text me that make my world upside down.. upon reading his message i am thinking what is that and i guess that it could be my crush greeting me because days before, after church gathering we do text and she found out my crush.. then after a minute boom!~ Emily you've got it right! he text me!!!! greeting:

hi emily :) happy birthday! continue to seek God in every second of your life. matindi pa gagawin sayo:) he will bless you para maging blessing ka din sa marami just like Jacob!

all i can say that very moment is " my GOD!!!!" and "loko ka Venisse!!!"... she made my day super happy. yes, Happy and I admit it but of course it is not only he who message me but some of unexpected church mates.. they hope more blessings for me and prayed for me.. all I can say that day was WOW!!!!and what made me even more surprise is that these guys edify me and prophesied! whoa!!  though my block mates didn't made my day important nor my High school friends too. God use my mentor to make me happy.

 I'm Emily and i'm already 17, but wait there's more! i will conquer my whole university for Jesus and won't miss a thing :)) for I hold on this verse:

I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.- Genesis 28:15 (NIV)

bombastic July :>

hey people of this planet.. it's so nice to be back.. actually i'm so busy due to my studies -_-  anyways i'm taking up BS Psychology in University of the East. Yes i'm a warrior :)) i'm so happy i can update this lovely Blog up!!i just want to release things from inside and absorb good vibes :))  in my new school, prayer walk really do work... the devil is really competitive to beat us just for us to get nothing but fears and anxiousness.. Last month, honestly i was like that... i'm afraid how things will work.. how can i just relax?! i don't want the atmosphere almost most of my classmates talk foul words, loves to cut classes and etc...  i was like " God where should i start?" achy-hearty feeling :( i also went dry to... but then i Got rejuvenated by the purpose i have.. i discovered my one thing which is to meet my destiny, to be with God and be in heaven.

these are the circumstances i've encountered lately:
*hard time catching up school works
*busy schedule
*weekly bunch of exams -_-
*weird classmates
*weird environment
*too much tiredness
*a couple of days getting hungry just so save up money


but i know my works are not in vain, God has something that will make this month EXPLODE!

Answered Prayer men!

"For I testify that they gave as they were able, and even beyond their ability. Entirely,on their other own,they urgently pleaded with us for the privilege of sharing in this service to the saints"  -2 Corinthians 8:3-4


hello people of this blog world! i'm so happy today!! i'll tell it later on as you continue reading. above verse was my devotion yesterday. and it truly manifest that we must really excel not just in faith, in speech,  in knowledge and in complete earnestness in love for God's people but also in grace of giving. really it struck my heart!  don't you realize, we keep on asking God  that "Lord i want that, Lord i want those" yet we still have nothing in return? yes, it also happens to me but God made me realize things in terms of receiving and giving. Yesterday my devotion was all about giving and the service of God's people.

God loves a cheerful giver and indeed it is true. we can't deny that sometimes we give with a feeling of being responsible or committed but it says in 2 Corinthians 9: 6-9  that if we give generously we also receive generously from God and Honestly we are the one who blocks our blessings out of our way. WHAAATT? is it true? yes it is true. and here is my story for this day.

I started this week with a great prayer (that was yesterday) and a good devotion. i know it is not Good to test God but i prayed "Lord I know you are God of Provision, Lord I also know that it is not Good to test you except from one thing. you said in Malachi that if we give our tithe, you will Shower us blessings.Lord I invested and you said too that what you reap is what you sow. Lord yesterday while i'm walking i closed a deal with you that before or on Wednesday if you give my tuition fee i will be fully committed" yes, i test God and i'm desperate.

this day i woke up and prayed unto God thanking him that i'm still alive. that prayer was short actually. i don't even got up in my bed. we have prayer walk at 9:00. i came late but I and Darlene can't do it easily. We thought that kuya Jepoy and ate Tin( our churchmates studying at the same school with us) are already there but unfortunately not. Ate Shobe our Gorgeous network leader told us to go on by ourselves but we can't! i am just a post-encounter Graduate and Darlene an Encounter graduate(how dramatic I was?!). we are undergoing PEPSOL Training. Darlene said "ayoko ng ganyan" we really wait for kuya Jepoy and do prayer walk. O God! I though it is small University after all but Lord kill me it has a lot of stairs but thank God after that long walk we prayed in tan yan kee garden. God was so thoughtful! he whispered i felt the air so soothing. after that Walk again. if I can only define U-belt it was endless walking place. we go to Mc Donald's and Shocks! nevermind :P when we got there my leader Venisse and I leave. we still have Consolidation. ohh.. i Love Czar. she's really lovely with her tucked top.

to make the story short this day was so exhausting. i got home at 4 pm without any person in our house and i was completely stunned. yes i can pray as loud as i want! i told God everything happens and shame on me,  i almost slept while listening to christian Song.  i rest some for i totally knew i was too weary. until my papa came. i just watch Television until mama call saying that tell papa leave my enrollment fee. stunned, shocked, astonished whatever you may call it i felt it! my father left so fast after ironing his shirt telling me that the money was in his wallet. when he left i check it out and boom! look at that i cried and keep on saying thank you lord. but i was thinking i asked it to God and remembered that I claim before  that before april ends i will be enrolled but why why late for 8 days and i wonder. i check my devotions and checked how many missed devotions i didn't made and amazingly it was 8!

I was the one who delayed my blessing.  same to you. God can't resist his children. we are irresistible in God's eyes. we prayed plus claim it equals total assurance of blessings.

maybe i write too much but let me end with this. we are the only reason in every deed we do. whatever we do, it is all because of you. are you ready to give to receive? to sow to reap? good luck blog people!! God loves us!

suffering to comfort

"For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ. 6 If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7 And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort." -2 Corinthians 1:5-7

Good day! its been a long time since i blogged and ah! its so soothing. verse above mention was my devotion yesterday ( 2 Corinthians 1-4) and it really open my mind how God gave his only Son for us Just to save us from the same suffering Jesus went through. just imagine 2000 years ago someone died for you. 39 lashes, the crown of thorns, the anchor size nails ,the heavy cross and all the rejections from the mob verbally and physically. whoa!! for me i can't handle that until death! I will rise up and said " i give up!" but Jesus finished it until he dies. 

sufferings we encounter today is just a tiny sufferings that Jesus felt.you know what, I also want to say " Father, i want to give up. i don't like this situation anymore, it hurts!" but then God reminds me, " daughter its just a scratch of what Jesus went through just to save you and have relationship with me are just going to give up because of that scratch? i believe in you that's why i'm giving you that kind of test!  are you faithful? then prove it!(1 cor 4:2) anyway child, i will not let you tempted in what you cannot bear. i also provide way out so that you can stand up!" (1 cor. 10: 13)

hey people! God is faithful and i myself asking God to give what i want. it's enrollment time for college yet i'm not yet enrolled! look what i have, i just have faith. i don't have money but i'm proud and i can still smile because i believe God will not leave me in this kind of distress. why won't you try and stop doubting that it is impossible.  I'm passionate sharing this because I also undergo suffering. from finances to family to studies to myself. Yes, i'm suffering from myself because i know that i'm not yet fully obeying God because sinning is my nature; yet I'm asking God to renew me each day. and thank God he gave me a gift. we all have gift. so why don't you try to work on it and ask God more.

i'm Going to end in this word-- Matthew 6:33 "therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.each day has enough trouble if its own." 

bye 2011

Many person believe that year 2012 was the year wherein the earth will supposedly collapse,destroy, vanish or let's say THE END. last year was a year full of emotions, anger and insecurity or simply,i was afraid. I was afraid to level up my faith to GOD. i thought having a far a way busy life without God is easy, going back to the past is easy, yet i was wrong. and i admit it, that's what i thought. there was i fallen in two different kinds of man; one that I spent my 3 years of loyalty and another guy whom i like for 3 months which starts from a simple joke. yes both of them let me feel like i'm flying yet i was wrong, Completely i was totally wrong. I thought being a Powerful person like being one of the best newspaper in the country's group, a high school governing official and even being a basketball player will make me happy like before, when i was still lost. I had the fame i want. everybody in our school recognize me, i won as the fourth place for sports writing and ninth place in photojournalism at the district conference yet i'm still incomplete. i miss how I began to be with those person who are deadly in love with the Lord. because i can't take this anymore when 2012 comes i am eager to establish God into my life. for the first week i'm adjusting and for the second week i was able to attend Historymakers night wherein great revival and forgiveness to myself happen but it doesn't happy just that easy i surpass test. my best friend needs to go home and also i for i will got home so late if i didn't leave at nine at the evening. i don't want to go home yet i promise my mom that i'll be home at 9. my best friend went home while i stay. perfect!! that's how i can define the word of God. Being beautiful inside and out. in eyes if men and of God. thank God i didn't went home like what i plotted to do. that night during altar call i felt the holy forgiveness and the true mourning from the heart. i realize i'm just afraid to step up and made history, i was afraid to leave what i nee to left behind and what do i need to do. that's why i'm proud to say Good bye 2011 hello 2012 . Welcome pambihira (exceptional) !!!!!